pound my knuckles hard against the floor.

ive decided to try making a collage again. its been awhile so im not sure how it will work out, but im hoping it will turn out well. i think it will. i used to make awesome ones. i made one for niki and seville both when i was in high school and they both still have them in their rooms. i just hope i haven't lost my touch.

i am so proud of eric. i keep telling him and im sure he is tired of hearing it, but i really am. he acutally made something he wanted to happen happen. he's out there with some great guys have fun and being happy and knowing that makes me happy. i told him tonight i would make that drive to south carolina all over again a million times just so he could be doing what he is doing right now. i still can't believe i actually drove there though, lol. and its hard to believe he is really there, and will be in four more different states over the next week and a half.

sometimes i want to say things but i bite my tounge. i feel it will get me farther that way, but then again its probably only keeping me farther away. i just don't like to complicate things. i don't like things like confrontation, rejection, or anything else that changes the normal routine of things. so i hide a lot of things and keep a lot of things to myself, because i just feel its better that way.

but i know, in all actuality, it is not.


i listen to way too much bayside for my own good.
but i really don't care.
january 28th im going to meet ol' anthony reeneri and its going to be amazinggggggg.
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