just another date on the calendar to you, but the 4th will always mean something more to me.

But if you left it up to me
Everyday would be
A holiday from real
We'd waste our weeks
Beneath the sun
We'd lie and tell our friends
It's so much fun out here
But when it's all over
I'll come back for another year


i want to leave. i want to get away.
but im so scared. i may be 21 but i feel like im 18 on the inside,
when it comes to things like responsibility and security.
2 years i spent thinking i had it all figured out.
2 of the most important years of my life.
and now its time to make some grown up decisions.
well, it has been time to do that for a year now and im still not ready.

as bad as i hate to say it, im a dependant person.
but im weary from past experiences.
i do have a real issue with trust.
but id love nothing more than someone to come in,
and say hey this is what we're doing, come on.
id pack up my bags and be gone.

id live in a holiday from real with someone forever.
if he'd just show up and ask.
no lie.
real talk.


ugh.